Avicii hoped he could learn to be happy with documentary voiceovers.
The Swedish DJ, who committed suicide at the age of 28 in 2018, tells his own story in a docufilm Avicii – I’m Tim produced with a compilation of some voiceovers he left behind.
In the documentary, Tim Bergling, who adopted the stage name Avivii, can be heard discussing the ways in which he tried to get to the root of his unhappiness: measures such as seeing psychiatrists and doctors, changing his diet and exercising.
The famous DJ felt overwhelmed by the idea of having to be both Avicii and Tim Bergling.People Magazine observed after the release of the documentary.
“My dream would be to be completely, completely comfortable and completely happy with what I already have, and not have aspirations to do a billion more things,” she said in the documentary.
“Fuck, I just want to be free of all the ideas of life. Those are the things that stopped me from living life, it was exactly that: just having an idea of what life should be and what should make me happy.”
Avicii noted how those aspirations also applied to his professional life, which explains his mental health struggles and concert cancellations.
“You know, making a bigger song will make me happier, or this, this and this. Nothing has turned out to be true. But I want to learn to be happy. This is what life would be like for me. Be happy.”
Bergling said he began to see changes in his life when he gave himself “space to explore.” Consequently, the musician felt a new sense of freedom that allowed him to finally start making music for himself.
Avicii’s friend Carl Falk said in the document that Bergling “had many dreams,” including “dreams of love, dreams of having a family” before his final days.
Falk acknowledged that “there was darkness” about his friend in the months before his death, as he often canceled music sessions to meditate or for other unknown reasons.
